Mei Mei

My heart will lie with you always,
For you my dear, the world I would give,
I look for you in deserted hallways,
For you my dear; the reason I live.

I find you when I need you most,
For you my dear, I'd give up my life,
About you, to everyone I boast,
For you my dear, I'd accept all strife.

You brighten my day, my life, my self,
For you my dear, I'd persevere,
On you I could spend all of my wealth,
For you my dear, I'd face my fears.

What traits I lack, I make up in love,
For you my dear, the world I would give,
For you my dear, the shining dove,
For you my dear; the reason I live.

Of Snow

And snow flakes fall,
Pirouette, glistening white,
My winter calls.

Soft snow flakes,
A cold embrace,
My soul awake.

Charismatic snow delight,
Brightening moods,
A heart less contrite.

Snow balls fly,
As children frollick,
Summer dies.

A snowy Winter wonderland,
The snow, so free and broad,
And company demand.

Snow all around me,
Comprehensive cover,
Happy I'll be.

When snow flakes fall.

The Meaning of Troof

The Meaning of Truth

In search for truth, one may be led astray,
In a field where so much matter is gray.
The sweet suffusion; of light and of dark,
Skewed become your thoughts, future becomes stark.

Search forever, and yet never at all,
Searches become pointless; all of us fall.
Yet look we must, for we know it is there,
Surrounded in myst, and ever so rare.

Truth may be found, in darkness or in light,
And find it you will, but not without fight.
It lies within us all, deep down inside,
Some closer to surface, easy guided.

It's obvious sometimes, and sometimes not,
But in the end, it's all that we have got.

Pro sonnet examining the intricacies that is truth and whatnot. lol so bad ^_^

Diffused with sound

The world so diffused with sound,
My mind moves with the rhythm,
Inside my head thoughts swirl around,
My mind as one, but memories schism.

The beat of the music sets my mood,
The sweet words move my heart,
Soft lyrics; I begin to brood,
And light lyrics; smile starts.

My head fills with thoughts recurring,
My heart fills with memories repeated,
The music fills my head; peace incurring,
I close my eyes, mind conceited.

My world so diffused with sound,
I sink into a fateless bliss,
Cadence; emotions spin around,
And then I remember, it's those things I miss.

Poetry skill degeneration 101

I won't blame you for every tear I cry,
For I know you didn't mean to.
I won't blame you for leaving me dry,
For you know not what you do.

We share something special, unique,
Something we alone share with each other.
But we can't talk, response oblique,
Moment; unhappiness; becomes another.

You don't trust me, this I know,
And yet, never proven otherwise.
You'll never trust me, this you show,
You'll keep your veil; sweet disguise.

Live with it I shall, for nothing I can do,
I don't like it though, your thoughts untrue.
Have some faith, my amazing, thine divine,
To me, my dear, you truly shine.

Tara's poem

Little un

Tara the little one,
Guaranteed to have some fun,
Tara, the silly one,
Guaranteed to say something dumb :)

She's the one that will listen,
She's the one that will tell you the truth.
She's the one with eyes that glisten,
She's the one that reminds you of youth.

She writes poems far better than mine,
She has a blog that kills mine too.
Best friend of thine divine,
People like Tara are far too few!

Little Tara, the bubbly one,
She's the one that won't turn and run.
Little Tara, the crazy one,
Touch her pesto and stare at the gun!

I expect one back >_< ps happy birthday matt.

Why thank you Matt

<3 Matt

<32u2 Matt ^_^

Why

Why can't I be a better person. And if I can't be better, why can't she find someone better, or realise that I'm not all I've 'cracked up to be'.

So Simple

Nothing could be so simple, one plus one,
Yet I'm staring down the barrel of a gun.
Nothing is quite as true as my failure,
Show me some support, don't be a stranger.

I need you now more than I ever will,
I need you now, yet away you walk still.
Come one and come all, see me at my worst,
Will you even notice, me in my hearse?

Dead to the world, yet you claim not to you,
Do you know what it means, to find love true?
Could you ever love a man such as me,
Just think for a second, happy I'll be.

Stare down the barrel, as I must do now,
And recite with me, my ending, my vow.

Meh, I dunnoez where this came from :s

Tears

I taste the tears you make me cry,
I leave my heart, out in the wind.
I shed my tears, hold on to lies,
I stray away from you, for I have sinned.

I cannot, nor ever will change,
I'll never be what you want me to.
Yell and scream, words exchanged,
It won't help, lost respect for you.

You torment me so, though you have no clue,
You pretend to know, but you could not.
You have no idea what I go through,
Yet some fully fledged idea you have got.

Please, I beg, just leave me alone,
Leave me in peace, I need not your presence.
Don't talk to me, put down the phone,
Leave me to create my sweet effervescence.

Sigh. So emo :/

Haikus to Mei

Come closer to me,
I want you here next to me,
To feel your sweet touch.

As you move away,
My heart and my eyes follow,
With you forever.

To your desire,
I respond with what I can,
Anything for you.

Touch, taste, your kiss sweet,
The touch of your lips moves me,
Kiss me one more time.

I can feel the love,
Which you can put in your kiss,
I can't let you stop.

Nothing as pretty,
Could compare to what I have,
What I see in you.

Shall not ever leave,
Your presense all that I need,
To live happily.

Smile lies on my face,
I close my eyes and you're there,
My smile broadens.

I sit and I wait,
For you to arrive my dear,
Would wait forever.

Love you Mei ^_^

Breaks

The wind breaks, as does my spirit,
The rain poors, drown my sorrows in it.
The stone lay still, like my heart,
The lightning crashs, takes me apart.

Don't act on your will,
Leave me here,
Perturbed; be still,
My head will soon clear.

Reconcile, but I still cannot,
If only I could, take that shot.
I don't know if I care enough,
Or whether I feel it's just too tough.

Please, act now,
I need you here.
Make me the vow,
For I love you dear.

The wind breaks, and up I look,
The rain poors, and in it I dance,
The stone lay still, yet I shook,
The lightning crashs; I'll take my chance.

Will you act?
I think I need you,
Thoughts abstract,
Yet a clear view.

EDIT: Rationale~
Speaks of a couple fighting, and the need for reconciliation (sp?). He doesn't want to fix it, and thinks he'll get over it, then he wants to reconcile, then he needs her to reconcile with him. The guy wants to makeup, as he loves her too much to let her go. And so his spirits brighten, but yet he is still lost in thought.

If only I could...

If only I could,
If only there was a way,
Things I need to tell.

This usually isn't a normal blog, however, I feel I must make a normal blog post of sorts.

Mei-Ying, how could I ever compare. The last thing I think about before sleeping, the first thing I think about when I wake up. My thoughts may drift away from you at times, but only for as long as the activity endures. I simply cannot fathom how much happier you have made my life. You brought warmth, you brought love, you brought compassion, you brought safety, you brought support, you brought comfort, you brought so many things for which I am greatful. And to top it all off, you ask for so little in return.

While she may never read this, I had to put it in the open. I had to let the world know how much she meant to me, though words may only scratch the surface. No matter how large one's vocabulary, no matter how skillful one's literature, what I feel simply cannot be expressed in writing. Nor in any action which I myself could carry out. I simply continue to try, hoping that one day she may realise just how much she means to me.

You lack the self esteem of most, however, you are also far greater than most. Quite strange to be truthful, though I know you've been through a lot. Yet you stay strong, and strive for happiness through other people, caring for yourself only at neccesary times. This forms another part of you that I truly love. Uncompromising selflessness. It's so persistent, and so insanely beautiful in it's existance, makes me truly happy thinking about all that you give up for another's happiness. You bring out the best in me kid, please don't ever stop.

You're there for me when I need it, and then again you're there for me when I don't. Your support provides me with such insane feelings of admiration and adoration; you carry me through tough times with your good will and kind words. Please, let me attempt to return the favour. Though I have never been terribly good at comforting, help me learn, so that I may return that which you so freely and willingly give to me. I feel so obliged to be there for you at every moment that I can, yet you do not let me get close, for you feel your issues too petty. Share with me your burdens, as you allow me to share mine. Bring yourself closer to me, as I feel myself being drawn closer to you. Open your heart, and let me share the warmth.

You mourn over your slight imperfections, while us mere mortals admire your complete beauty, that is, your outter and inner refinement. You become downcast when you think of how much you care, when you know you shouldn't. Simply put my dear, don't. Your thoughtfulness and tenderness is appreciated by all, don't stop being you. Do not be ashamed of the person that you are, your effervescence brings about smiles, it brings about joy, it creates a feeling of content. Your presence warms a room, your good will melts hearts, your friendliness cures hurt. You take hate and return love, you take grief and you return comfort. Perfection is impossible, yet they say nothing is impossible. To me my dear, perfection comes in the form of you.

Mei my dear, my dearest of dears, how could I ever compare. You are my sunshine, you are my rainbow, you are my green grass, you are my brighter pasture, you are my tulip, you are my addiction. So to you I say this; I love you, yet do not let that be enough. Please, shape me into what you deserve me to be.

Only You

When you came into my life, I was sure,
That I would love you forever, ever more.
My beautiful Mei, this thought has come true,
I will love you forever, only you.

Your presence makes me feel complete; so whole,
I live for you my dear, my life's one goal.
A flower; the sun, the moon, pale next to,
My absolute, undescribable you.

I yearn, just for you; all day and all night,
I can't forget you, try hard as I might.
Not that I'd want to, so fair is my dear;
Come lie with me, and forget all your fears.

I love you; could you ever love me too?
I will love you forever, only you.

Sonnet for my love.

Because people might accidentally come here now...

I thought I should add rationales to my poems. I'll do it when I get home tonight. They'll just be a few lines describing what that poem is about. werd

Okay so maybe I can't be bothered doing all of them :P I'll do it in future when i write more.

Southern Comfort inspired

Ahhh the joys of triple shots.

It moves with the grace of ballet,
The earth laughs in flowers.
They would cover it all if I had my way,
Right up to the sky would the beauty tower.

Spring brings out the best in me,
But it brings out the best in you too.
It opens my heart, makes me free,
It opens up my heart to you.

As they blossom before my eyes,
Roses as red as a setting sun.
Tulips in their yellows disguise,
Elegance in colours, oh such fun.

As flowers bloom, so does my mind,
My heart, my soul, my everything.
Any colour of any kind,
I love all flowers; no one king.

Speaks of the beauty of flowers, and the joy they bring to people. Wasn't really about me that much, as while flowers are aiight I'm not really into them that much. The reader is also meant to feel a relationship between the happiness and joy of flowers and the joy and happiness their loved ones bring them.

tashpoem02

You inspire me when im down,
Inspire me with your smile.
You can change my mood at will,
With the beauty of your laughter.

I never regret a moment,
A moment spent with you.
Such fun I remember we've had,
In the company of each other.

You keep the smile on my face,
Keep it there with laughs.
Laughing at me, laughing at you,
I've never laughed so much.

Thank you my dear, ever so much,
Thank you for all you've done.
I shall remain your friend, forever more,
In the hope of paying you back.

I swear they only get marginally better every time. My poems suck >_<

I wrote a poem to Tash describing how happy the friendship we have makes me. We used to have a lot of really fun lessons @ CHS, and reminiscing of these inspired the poem. And I also felt the need to thank her for being my friend, as it means a lot to me

If my heart were to fly would you follow?

Happy thoughts

If my heart were to fly would you follow?
We could fly, into clouds, my heart not hollow.
If I were to jump would you jump with me?
Such amazing things we could truly be.

If I were to cry, would you lend me your shoulder?
And sit with me, never leave, till we were older.
Not for every obsticle, but for some, would you carry me?
Use the strength I don't have, help me see.

If I took a stand, would you stand there?
Would you try to help me, would you care?
If I stood down, would you stand down?
Would you trust me, dear don't frown.

If my heart were to fly would you follow?
As it's all I want you to do.
If my heart were to fly would you follow?
For me, dear, your love is all I knew.

A poem I wrote for my dearest Mei. It speaks of the things that I see our relationship blossoming into, and all the things that I want. It speaks of happiness and love that we have/will share/d. There is a strong theme of togetherness and relying on each other to prosper.

HAPPYTHENEMO

Within your sweet embrace comes something more,
A sensual feeling, but I can't be sure.
Hours spent together, but always apart,
Our relationship doomed from the start.

You never tried, avoided me so long,
Avoided us, how could I have been so wrong.
What I thought was love, was simply you,
Twisting my thoughts, thoughts untrue.

With every word you spoke, you broke my heart,
Yet gently gestured, played the sweet part.
If ever again i get the chance, just one,
Make no mistake, I'd prefer to run.

Dunno what really happened with that one, I wrote the first two lines right after the haikus, then came back to it today, while listening to some somewhat emo music and it all got changed :/ Ahh well, it's still aiight.

Not a poem I can really relate to, but interesting to me none the less. It speaks of a person who found what they thought was a decent and solid relationship, and a woman whom he thought he may have fallen in love with, but it turns out she wasn't serious, and it breaks his heart. She led him on, and it cut him up.

Mei poem

Mei asked me to write a poem for her...

I'll be waiting for you,
No matter where you go,
Cause I've been waiting for you,
My feelings for you steady grow.

Self concious and selfless,
Your beauty, both outside and in.
Such a wonderful heart you do possess,
To hurt you dear, is worse than sin.

A deeper feeling of loss than most,
Trust lost, unwilling to now.
Not letting people get too close,
I want to be close, but how?

Trust me dear, for I won't let you down,
Blindly take my hand, and I will show you,
Be with me, never frown,
Be with me, and stay forever true.

Mei's first poem from Matt ^_^. Mei doesn't trust anyone, so that became a major theme for my poem. I want her to trust me, and I want to be able to trust her. It also speaks of her beautiful qualities, and how I want to be with her.

Hi Koo

As we sit, smiling,
Tears slowly roll down my face,
You are way too sweet.

Laugh, feeling happy,
Wrestling in the long grass,
We can have such fun.

I say goodnight, yet,
I do not wish you to leave,
Need you here tonight.

Longing

Once I was sure, once I knew you, back then,
We talked about things you can't imagine.
We truly loved each other, way back when,
Such things happen but once in a million.

And suddenly you left, not looking back,
You left me sitting there, wondering why.
I cannot take it; something I can't hack,
Wishing you back, on the stars in the sky.

Sometimes I just sit there, waiting for you,
All by myself; I wish you for myself.
But you are not mine, this I always knew.
My mourning but festers there, by itself.

I will get over you sometime I hope,
Till then, memories I will use to cope.

A sonnet (14 lines 10 syllables) about rejection. There's an extreme feeling of loneliness from the person, and while they realise they'll get over them, it seems impossible now.

Renee is right...

I do do it

I see you lying on a cloud up there,
Peaceful, I slowly lay down next to you.
Our breaths move in rhythmes, sleeping, unfair,
I am not asleep, and it's just us two.

I lay there thinking, what to say to you?
So many idea's, but none are right.
You do not want me, my feelings untrue,
So I move away, can't do it tonight.

The next day I'm there, looking in the clouds.
The next day you're there, asleep next to me.
Still I wonder, what to say? I'm too proud.
I retreat, away again, not yet free.

I cannot say what I feel, too scared to.
For it is not love, but friendship imbued.

Random

Of all the things I could have had,
There is but one that makes me sad,
The thought of you, gone away now,
Walking so far away, but how.
We felt the same, did we not dear,
I try to understand, unclear.
My mind spinning out of control,
Appearing to be nice, yet cold,
Times we had appear to have gone,
All the times, together we shone.
Don't forget my dear, of such things,
For when next we meet, this I bring.

Sonnet

Finally, a sonnet!

You take me in, all of you, such beauty,
Must protect you, I feel it my duty.
Calling my name, calling for me, so strong,
Softly uttering thoughts, can do no wrong.
I whisper back, telling you I'm ready,
"Wait" you ask me, I try and hold steady.
I speak my mind, whispering back sweet sounds,
I cannot help it, I feel my heart pound.
We dance around in the depths of each other,
No complications, with I just your lover.
Your breath, your touch, your thoughts, open to me ,
We both convulse, suddenly we're both free.
As I lay and feel you there, I proceed,
To hold you there, for you are all I need.

sonnet wannabe

I told renee I'd write a sonnet and i was soooooo close. Just missing one thing. Rhyming :(. And a fully proper structure. But anyways, I still think it's ok

Of a year come and passed, i think back then,
Of the saddness, the grief, the tears, the shame.
Then I remember, the year that has gone,
And I think of the good, the great, the times.
The times that we had, the times that we loved,
And I remember these times with fondness,
For these are the times we shared together.
Together as one, together with friends,
I enjoyed us together, all the time.
And I remember us not, befriended,
I enjoyed these times, yet not quite as much,
So this my dear, I say to you, adieu,
But not forever, just for now, adieu.

More haikus. Slightly darker, don't know why. They just are ^___^

The one thing i want,
Stands so far away, can't touch,
Though I desire to.

Unbearable pain,
Cannot stand these thoughts i have,
You walking away.

The past, just set free,
Burdens lightened, fly away,
At peace once again.

The tash poem

She made me write a poem on her. No structure, no rhyme, just an idea. And so I present, an extremely shit poem, entitled "Just a Flower"

Shining yet not, happy yet not, inner confusion,
Wanting to be happy, but can't, so sad.
Feeling things, but never satisfied, needing more,
Yet not feeling, ignoring the good, feeding the loathing.
Sheltering the dismal, shunning the light,
Brighten up sunshine, not all is bad.
As they say, for every dark night there is a brighter day,
Cheer up sunshine, all is not lost when you have us.
We're there for you, and not, when you don't want us to be,
Inspire me sunshine, lead me to those higher places.
I want to visit, and I want you to come,
For I've never seen you smile brighter than when;
In friendly company we spoke and laughed,
Cheered and jeered, smiled, yet never cried.
This my dear, is want I want for you,
Because this my dear, is what I've wanted too.

more to come

I'm drinking atm, if I can stay awake + sober enough for my laziness to pass I will do some more tonight. I want to attempt a sonnet, but the whole iambic pentameter makes me tear.

NINJA EDIIIIT:
Once lost in the dark,
One thing shined through to me,
I'm glad it was you.

Haikus

Sigh, what have you done to me renee :'(

I wrote some haikus today when i was bored. They're pretty bad, but meh (actually I lie i wrote the first one yesterday). More to come if I can be bothered.

Like Butterflies fly,
So does my heart fly for you;
So do I love you.

Can't be given up,
For you are not mine to give,
Though I wish you were.

The sweet smell of you,
Maketh thine eyes deceive me,
For you are not here.