Of Betrayal

It's okay until you find out,
It's okay up until the last round.
Then you find out what it's all about,
And your soul shatters to the ground.

This is so much worse than I could ever have imagined. <\3 x 14098712087912361230

Of Waiting Games

I watch it leak; my life, my blood,
Because of this life I must lead.
I watch this life turn from rock to mud,
As I must watch my heart bleed.

I play the waiting game,
And see you push me away.
My body must cower in shame,
At this game I'm forced to play.

I thought sometimes enough,
But maybe it was never at all,
I thought that I could be tough,
But then I succumbed to the call.

Time spent apart productive, so they say,
But watching you push me away hurts,
A break we must have, there's no other way,
But I'm wary of him, my brain alert.

I must participate in this activity,
Because of the fact that I love you.
I laugh at my own sensitivity,
I just know that we can't be through.

Of woe

Woe is life, woe is me, woe is my situation.

Loneliness.
1. affected with, characterized by, or causing a depressing feeling of being alone; lonesome.
2. destitute of sympathetic or friendly companionship, intercourse, support, etc.: a lonely exile.
3. lone; solitary; without company; companionless.
4. remote from places of human habitation; desolate; unfrequented; bleak: a lonely road.
5. standing apart; isolated: a lonely tower.

Alone.

1. separate, apart, or isolated from others: I want to be alone.
2. to the exclusion of all others or all else: One cannot live by bread alone.
3. unique; unequaled; unexcelled: He is alone among his peers in devotion to duty.
–adverb
4. solitarily; solely: She prefers to live alone.
5. only; exclusively.
6. without aid or help: The baby let go of the side of the crib and stood alone.
—Idioms
7. leave alone,
a. to allow (someone) to be by himself or herself: Leave him alone—he wants to rest.
b. to refrain from annoying or interfering with: The youngsters wouldn't leave the dog alone, and he finally turned on them.
8. let alone,
a. to refrain from annoying or interfering with.
b. not to mention: He was too tired to walk, let alone run.
9. let well enough alone, to be satisfied with the existing situation; refrain from attempting to change conditions: Marriages are often destroyed by relatives who will not let well enough alone.

Don't worry, you have him. And him. And him

Of stuff

Now more than ever, I just wish you would, I just wish you would.~

Walk away and never come back,
Yet still you come back,
I don't know what to do when you say,
That I share with no one.

I sit and watch,
Exchanged conversation, glances,
Exchanged wishes,
That you share with them.

Is it for me or them that,
You look the way you do,
Is it for me or them,
That they share with you.

Is it me or them you breath for,
Do the smiles come from me or them,
When you laugh, is is it at me with them,
I'm alone when you speak, and when you don't.

When you push, is it pushing me away,
When you hit, is it wishing for them,
When you cry, do you want them,
When you bleed, does it remind you of me?

A love you can't reciprocate,
For you share it with them,
When you move forwards,
Is it to me or them?