Of Jealousy

It eats away at me like no other,
The cold, piercing feeling of envy,
A green ooze from which I cannot escape,
That feeling I need to let go.

Inferiority; the life i lead,
It still taunts me, as none other.
Overbearing, looming uncertainty,
When you know you're not as good.

I fight the feeling, still in my gut,
It tears away my flesh; I pay no heed.
It's becomes only just bearable; it'll stay.
And through it I'll say, I love you.

I stare in amazement, so ignorant,
Walks on the highest cloud,
I sit and take mild self pity,
As the cloud slowly drifts away.

My heart, heavy as lead,
The wind whispers in my ear,
Telling me to go on,
Before it passes by unnoticed.

My emotional cadence, your effervescence,
An existence intertwined,
You'll never know the sweet sound,
Of the envy spilt.